2012

2012 is a special year for every homo sapiens and its also a special one for me as this is the year finally i can say i am graduating from UTP after ages (5 miserable years). Since 2007, I've been looking forward to 2012 as a year where i can cure my salvation. 2012 arrived in an unexpected style where I am facing FINAL EXAMS on the very first week of 2012 !@!#@#@$#ˆ!&ˆ*#*(@!. Nothing could describe better than that but fortunately this would be the last time having exams during december and january for me. Still FYDP II looming large like cumulonimbus on my next semester and I am wondering why my university is being so radical and retarded by arranging group members for us. As you know, those dudes loathe doing work and also indulge in their lackadaisical behavior which i don't understand how and why PETRONAS sponsored them for their education. Speaking of intelligent wise, they are smart but their attitude derails them from the distinctive students. Don't worry about me, I am still enduring and surviving from this catastrophe and I hope my final 2 semesters can go as smooth as a silk. I still remember back in 2007, before I was in Endorphins rush , heads in the clouds and minds off to fantasies thinking that a Shell Scholar is as bright as anyone else, I thought Chemical Engineering is the mirror of me ever since Mr. Lim (cekap chemistry teacher) waved his wands like a magician showing us the wonders of Chemistry. BUT unfortunately, when I stepped into UTP, i realized that I am not suitable to do this kind of job, the subjects are pretty interesting but the job itself is boring, well definitely the Chemical Engineer title is the bomb but the job itself is also a big bomb. Already in my final year, I realized I lost my soul in studying, I could not seek for my passion to score and I study for the sake of studying and not scoring anymore, is it the sign of Final Year Syndrome like one of my friends stated on his facebook? Or perhaps just another excuse for a lazy boy for me to get rid of books? Back home, 2012 is also a year where my brother and cousins get to enjoy their Undergraduate life, my parents decided that their decision to send me to UTP was wrong and since they do not wanna make the second bookable offense, they decided to splurge on my brother and well, fortunately my brother made my dream come to fruition which is to study in the States but bare in mind, the person is my brother and not me. I am not jealous nor envy but the gamut of emotion makes me disappointed of my parents for not being able to do the fair share to me as well. I was depressed, I am depress, I will depress and I really hope to finish my studies A.S.A.P so that I do not have to keep depressing day by day. It sucks when you have to sit down in the hostel room under the hot humid air typing this depressing blog and complain and complain and complain but I had Hobson's choice but to spill my feelings here in the blog because seems like only blogspot understands how I felt. No one really could not even my parents nor my friends. I'm in the midst of Final Exam and hoping to finish it a.s.a.p and in my mind, I really do wanna score the Vice Chancellor Bronze award and also First class honors, I'll work hard for it but in the mean time, let you guys read this piece of concise writing and have a deep thought about it before i pen down and go and have my peaceful nap before facing my next paper which is Plant Utility System.....